been writing more, wrote two last night, one tonight. but they are hard to put up here because of the way I created the structure. doesn't transfer when i paste it I'll figure it out when i have more energy. but I kinda don't want to sleep... weird

Somedays I crave something drastic, its like an undeniable urge to do or change something-- so many options-- not enough time

btw does anyone find it amusing that the high icon in my journal is found under "daily needs"
hmm
tis true

Today, is not a pretty day
The rain is pattering on the cement
at my feet
Splashing onto innocent bystanders
Like a drive by shooting
But more malicious
Today, is not a pretty day
I'd rather be listening to the rain
from my bed
Tapping on my dormroom window
Like Poe's raven

I am bored! And still in a hell of a writer's block

Neon lights buzz through the thick air
like bees swarming on a humid florida day
leather sways with laughter
pendulum voices rise until fans sweep them apart
stifling air billows from the swinging door
catching in the late night's frozen lungs
to be released in a sigh of cool relief
the bleary eyed slip into dark comforts
sliding apart like sound waves
spliced and individual souls


I should be studying, I was dragged into social-life...supposedly for studying xp

Tundra climate ices
Emotions
Lonesome
Like wolves
scream
And howl
Frantic thrumming
Swallowing
Life congeals
In snow
Scarlet prints
Of yesterday
Raw drag-lines
For tomorrow
In their canines
Held tight
Steaming tongues
Relishing
Sanguinary essence
Necessary
Survival tact
Silver plumes
Behind
as
Snow-blind
Escape
In white


I just feel like a fuck up that doesn't deserve to sleep.
so. i'm broke, and angry, and tired, and angry, and stressed.. and did i mention angry?
and stupid since it's about 4am and i'm too stubborn to let myself sleep.